When You Don’t Want to Wait Any Longer

It's all so magical, the belly-warming glow of the lights juxtaposed with the sparkling winter chill, bells lingering in the air, chimed from towers and bell choirs, scheming up just the perfect gift for children and friends, imagining their faces a million times before they even open the gift: there is so much to love … Continue reading When You Don’t Want to Wait Any Longer

How To Know The Story’s Not Over

I am the most ridiculous person to watch a movie with. I get so wrapped up in the character's lives, I don't even know where I am. I make friends with the hero and heroine. I laugh when they laugh. I cry when they cry. Their story is mine too. When I was 16, my … Continue reading How To Know The Story’s Not Over

It’s Always Opposite Day In Hell

I've been meaning to tell you this for a while, but hell was beating me up. Just like it's been beating you up. I finally got ahead in the past several days, but I am tired. It is 2:00 in the morning as I write today, the first time I've been simultaneously awake, coherent and … Continue reading It’s Always Opposite Day In Hell

For The Days You Want To Give Up On The Dream

Every few months I hit a wall in my writing. In my dreaming. I just want to quit. I want to quit bad.I don't want to get up early or stay up late. I don't want to prop up my laptop on my lap and pound out the thoughts, whatever they are.I don't want to keep … Continue reading For The Days You Want To Give Up On The Dream

What Are You Doing With Your Life?

In the last year of high school, I remember the feeling that this was the season of life I would finally find myself. Cause that’s what you do in your twenties, right? Finally free of my parents’ restrictions and mandated class attendance, I'd finally be able to answer two plaguing questions: Who am I? and … Continue reading What Are You Doing With Your Life?

Sometimes We Forget This Is The Life We Wanted

A dream fulfilled is a tree of life, they say. But they forgot to mention it can be a burden too. I am pregnant with a dream fulfilled. A little boy, our second child. There are three and a half years between our kids, but we didn't plan it that way. I expected our second … Continue reading Sometimes We Forget This Is The Life We Wanted

Do You Know What Makes You Come Alive?

I used to believe the moment my dreams came true, life would switch into a special filter. I could see the footage play in my mind, complete with a soundtrack and appropriately-timed slow motion. My own personal Chariots of Fire beach scene.  But I was only setting myself up for a giant letdown. It turns out, … Continue reading Do You Know What Makes You Come Alive?

Your Lent Is My Advent

When Bourbon Street woke up Wednesday morning, awash in color and liquor, it was Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent. The day we were supposed to begin our preparations for Easter. Everyone had something to say about Lent, about what we should give up, trade in, or add to our routines. But this year, … Continue reading Your Lent Is My Advent

We Don’t Need More Reasons To Be Afraid

I don't watch scary movies. I don't need to. My life has enough fear and drama. I don't feel afraid for my safety or anything, but there is plenty of unpredictability and anxiety to go around - I don't need someone else's imagined fear adding to it. For example, two weeks ago, I went to … Continue reading We Don’t Need More Reasons To Be Afraid