I am Jesus’ awkward friend

In college, it was getting easy. I finally figured out how to make friends, not talk too much or make people feel uncomfortable around me. And aside from the tumultuous relationships and the general self-loathing, my relationship with God felt relatively sturdy too. In the mornings, I propped up my pillow behind my head, then … Continue reading I am Jesus’ awkward friend

How to feel like a good mom when you tuck yourself in

Motherhood is teaching me a lot about my human-hood. And it hurts. I face off against the frayed and tasseled ends of my patience and goodness every time my voice shouts too loud, or when my son's unexplainable need to fish in the toilet stirs up my ugly, unreasonable side. I don't like that girl … Continue reading How to feel like a good mom when you tuck yourself in

All the Little Things

[Today I'm writing at Start Marriage Right about how the little things all stack up in our relationships, and how that impacts our dynamics for good and bad.] I was already going to be late, and I knew it. Skimming through the house, I tried to piece together all my essential parts before running out … Continue reading All the Little Things

It’s almost impossible

On Sunday, amidst the usual flurry of activity, my friend, Kerry, shoved Freefall to Fly into my hands. The exchange happened in seconds. I don't really remember why she gave it to me, except that we had talked about it recently. She was spot on. This is what I needed to read. Somewhere hidden in the … Continue reading It’s almost impossible

When we get to heaven…

When we get to heaven, we will discover God is so much better than we thought. Much kinder, grander, more magnanimous, generous, beautiful, vast. We will see that he was always looking at us with those kind, crinkly eyes, glad to have us here. So let's start interacting with him that way now. Jesus enables … Continue reading When we get to heaven…

The battle of healing among the sick

It was about two and a half weeks ago, a Monday, and the healing conference was only a day behind me. I didn't pray for any strangers for healing at the conference, but after coming home and hearing the stories I'd heard, I decided I was going to do it. I would stop saying "No" … Continue reading The battle of healing among the sick

You’ve never existed before

If you want to do something grand yet peculiar with your life, if you want to be something enormous, colorful and wild, but you can't seem to think of anyone else who has done this before, well you're probably right. No one has ever been you before. So the thing in your head that you … Continue reading You’ve never existed before

I am found, or The thing I’ve been missing

I learned a lot about love this week, but it was kind of a backwards experience. I learned how much I needed love when I tried to "love" people without feeling loved myself, and without truly loving them. I'm great at being nice. Just ask anyone I work with. I practice forgiveness and written extensively … Continue reading I am found, or The thing I’ve been missing

Stories of Fear and Faith #2

It's our first full day in Oklahoma. Check out the video for a little background on why we are here, what we're doing and a fun story about God giving me a message for a junior high girl. She was adorable! Also check Instagram and Twitter (@sarahsiders on both) for my crazy #4days4ways challenge, wearing … Continue reading Stories of Fear and Faith #2

If I were God

It's been a weird week, one of sinking deeper into this identity I'd been trying to dodge. But finally feeling at home in it. Understanding my gifts and even enjoying how they work in real life. And yet at the same time, there were growing pains and conflict all around. The pain of feeling disregarded … Continue reading If I were God