Why Not Tell Yourself The Truth?

We are always talking to ourselves. But the conversation is mostly laced with deception. With small white lies and rationalizations. And even more, with stories and fables about who God is and what he thinks about us. In my fantasy, God is mad. Still mad at me for that one thing. Or all those things. And so … Continue reading Why Not Tell Yourself The Truth?

When You Pray and It Feels Like Nothing Is Happening

Sometimes prayer feels like this. Pouring tiny drops of water into a giant bucket. No matter how late or long or loud you pray, it seems like the bucket is still empty. All your work, your blood, sweat, prayers. You launch them upward, hot, sticky and tired, but nothing comes back down to you. You want to … Continue reading When You Pray and It Feels Like Nothing Is Happening

Don’t Waste Your Courage On A Swimsuit

Maybe it’s too late to have this conversation, but I want to talk about swimsuits. Swimsuit. What a word. I mean, it is practically synonymous with self-hatred talks to the mirror and the emotion of shame itself. Good grief. Every summer, we try on the old one or drag ourselves out to find a new one. … Continue reading Don’t Waste Your Courage On A Swimsuit

When You Think You’re Never Going To Get Better

Today I talked with a mama friend who's been anxious and scared for a long while. She's tired of fighting this fight with her mind. I know this feeling so well. There were days in the worst of my paralyzing paranoia where I wanted to just give up. I didn’t want to die, really, but … Continue reading When You Think You’re Never Going To Get Better

Don’t Drink The Water

Everyone and every-where possess a unique emotional climate. This atmosphere may be as big as a country, as small as a person, and everything - cities, churches, businesses, families - in between. It's something in the environment, a vibe, that something-in-the-air that for most people, goes undetected. Unless they're looking for it. The emotional climate of … Continue reading Don’t Drink The Water

Don’t Say No For God

When I was only five, I promised my missionary friend, Paul, who served in his native country in west Asia, that I would join him one day in his orphanage and serve in missions. From that moment on, overseas missions was the adventure I dreamed of, a hope I could clearly see all through my school years. As … Continue reading Don’t Say No For God

You Can’t Make A Masterpiece Without Making A Mess

 It's easy to be ashamed of the mess we make with our lives. The learning, the integrating, the developing, well, it sounds nice when I say it like that. But in reality, it's a lot of falling and spilling and wardrobe changes. It's the shame and disgrace we'd rather hide from. We don't want anyone to … Continue reading You Can’t Make A Masterpiece Without Making A Mess