I am the opposite of me

I am a paradox. And so are you. We are clean and shiny in some areas of ourselves, yet disheveled disasters in others. The real estate of our souls and our yards is impeccable from one angle, and painfully unkempt from another. How is it that we can live with coexisting brilliance and ignorance, with generous … Continue reading I am the opposite of me

No one notices the pillars

No one notices the pillars. Take a look at the White House. The facade, the grandeur, the elegance, the sweeping landscape. The protesters in front. You can feel the history. But you probably walk right past the pillars. They cast a lovely shadow, create an ambience to be experienced, but so often we look right through them while they stand at … Continue reading No one notices the pillars

Anger Management for Moms: the 365 Day Challenge

A couple weeks ago, I wrote about anger. My anger. The kind that fills me up with sadness and regret. The kind I dive into in the moment and feel I'm drowning in the next. Since I wrote about it, read about anger from other moms and started paying attention to my volume and emotion, … Continue reading Anger Management for Moms: the 365 Day Challenge

A squishy, floaty, sturdy, heavy thing called Love

Only the things done in love matter. Only the things done in love weigh enough to stamp eternity. Everything else just floats off the surface as vapor. It's not the act. It's the intent. Love might wear you out, but it doesn't get tired that easily. Love lets you be where you are right now, … Continue reading A squishy, floaty, sturdy, heavy thing called Love

I am Jesus’ awkward friend

In college, it was getting easy. I finally figured out how to make friends, not talk too much or make people feel uncomfortable around me. And aside from the tumultuous relationships and the general self-loathing, my relationship with God felt relatively sturdy too. In the mornings, I propped up my pillow behind my head, then … Continue reading I am Jesus’ awkward friend

It’s almost impossible

On Sunday, amidst the usual flurry of activity, my friend, Kerry, shoved Freefall to Fly into my hands. The exchange happened in seconds. I don't really remember why she gave it to me, except that we had talked about it recently. She was spot on. This is what I needed to read. Somewhere hidden in the … Continue reading It’s almost impossible

When we get to heaven…

When we get to heaven, we will discover God is so much better than we thought. Much kinder, grander, more magnanimous, generous, beautiful, vast. We will see that he was always looking at us with those kind, crinkly eyes, glad to have us here. So let's start interacting with him that way now. Jesus enables … Continue reading When we get to heaven…

The battle of healing among the sick

It was about two and a half weeks ago, a Monday, and the healing conference was only a day behind me. I didn't pray for any strangers for healing at the conference, but after coming home and hearing the stories I'd heard, I decided I was going to do it. I would stop saying "No" … Continue reading The battle of healing among the sick

Stories of Fear and Faith #6.1

https://vimeo.com/63140117 This is all a little surreal. I'm really doing it though. I am praying for strangers and friends alike for healing. I am realizing what an adventurous God I'm working with here. He loves so much. I just have to stay connected to that love or I'm headed for compassion burnout. But it's been … Continue reading Stories of Fear and Faith #6.1

You’ve never existed before

If you want to do something grand yet peculiar with your life, if you want to be something enormous, colorful and wild, but you can't seem to think of anyone else who has done this before, well you're probably right. No one has ever been you before. So the thing in your head that you … Continue reading You’ve never existed before