When You Pray and It Feels Like Nothing Is Happening

Sometimes prayer feels like this. Pouring tiny drops of water into a giant bucket. No matter how late or long or loud you pray, it seems like the bucket is still empty. All your work, your blood, sweat, prayers. You launch them upward, hot, sticky and tired, but nothing comes back down to you. You want to … Continue reading When You Pray and It Feels Like Nothing Is Happening

These stories pump water

I love brand new ideas, really good ones I wish I thought of. Don't you? Well, here's one for you. Have you heard of CausePub yet? If you haven't, you're about to. I just wrote a story for CausePub, an organization creating books for a cause through group-publishing. [Click here to read the story and … Continue reading These stories pump water

Negative tests and practicing my poker face

{I've been leery of sharing these thoughts and stories about our journey to have Baby #2. I don't want to get pegged as an infertility writer cause I will feel guilty for getting pregnant when my readers are still trying. But more than that, letting strangers see the longings in my heart has been just … Continue reading Negative tests and practicing my poker face

The God of Self-Help

If you've been in church, or been around churchy people, you've heard people talk about God. Mostly he sounds like a philanthropic celebrity, but kind of religiousy. The hazy God-descriptions based on scriptural references don't help. "He's the God of the oppressed." "He's the Father to the fatherless." "He's a friend to those in need." … Continue reading The God of Self-Help

When it’s all up to you: the value of legacy

{If you found me through my article on Catalyst, welcome. And if you're a regular or a visitor, please let me share my news: I had the privilege to be featured on Catalyst this week, talking about the church planting life and the value of raising up the legacy of the next generation of leaders. … Continue reading When it’s all up to you: the value of legacy

I am the opposite of me

I am a paradox. And so are you. We are clean and shiny in some areas of ourselves, yet disheveled disasters in others. The real estate of our souls and our yards is impeccable from one angle, and painfully unkempt from another. How is it that we can live with coexisting brilliance and ignorance, with generous … Continue reading I am the opposite of me

Anger management: how it’s going out here

Two weeks ago, I took a crazy challenge. But it was about time. Inspired by the brave mom at The Orange Rhino, I committed not to yell at my son for 365 days. With certain caveats, like safety and distance, of course. That was 14 days ago. So now it's confession time, right? How have I actually … Continue reading Anger management: how it’s going out here

Anger Management for Moms: the 365 Day Challenge

A couple weeks ago, I wrote about anger. My anger. The kind that fills me up with sadness and regret. The kind I dive into in the moment and feel I'm drowning in the next. Since I wrote about it, read about anger from other moms and started paying attention to my volume and emotion, … Continue reading Anger Management for Moms: the 365 Day Challenge