What Matters More Than Comfort

Maybe you don't know this about me, but I hate pain. Seriously. Ask my husband. He hears about every stubbed toe, every cramp. I pop Advil at the first sign of a headache. I have the tiniest pain tolerance. Really tiny. I heard about labor and delivery from a few friends, and everyone I knew … Continue reading What Matters More Than Comfort

When Life Makes No Sense, Neither Does Peace

Ever feel obligated to be anxious? I do. It's a strange pressure, but it's one I feel when I'm in a situation that makes no sense. When the uncertainty mounts, and there are no clear, settled answers, it's time to cue the worry. Surrounding the birth and health of my son, I've fought with and for … Continue reading When Life Makes No Sense, Neither Does Peace

You Have to Fight for Peace

It might seem odd to say that peace, or the state of peace, requires conflict first. But in my life, that's been true. Recently I've had to fight extra hard for peace. Especially with the health of my son and me. The problem is I don't want to fight. I just want to sleep. I will go … Continue reading You Have to Fight for Peace

We Don’t Need More Reasons To Be Afraid

I don't watch scary movies. I don't need to. My life has enough fear and drama. I don't feel afraid for my safety or anything, but there is plenty of unpredictability and anxiety to go around - I don't need someone else's imagined fear adding to it. For example, two weeks ago, I went to … Continue reading We Don’t Need More Reasons To Be Afraid

The Right To Be Whatever You Are

I need to tell you something: I've been lying. Or at least shrinking the truth. It took me until Sunday night in a room full of Christmas carols to realize it. I stood up for the chorus, "Sing Joy", but I didn't feel joyful. And I finally knew why. I have so many reasons to … Continue reading The Right To Be Whatever You Are

When It Seems Like God Can’t Be Trusted

It's already been three weeks since I announced my pregnancy with our second baby. I've been thrilled about the news and the process - pregnancy is such a crazy mystery to me. But this has also been one of the most difficult seasons of my life. I've had to fight so many times to believe … Continue reading When It Seems Like God Can’t Be Trusted

Why “Working Mother” Is A Redundant Term, Part 2

Hello there, and welcome. This is the second part of my conversation on the incredibly redundant term, "working mother". If you are just joining the read, it might help you to catch up by reading yesterday's post here, where I left off talking about my journey out of self-righteous feminism. When one of my best … Continue reading Why “Working Mother” Is A Redundant Term, Part 2

A Little, Tiny Announcement

Today is one of those days where I know God is extravagantly kind because my life is proof. Today is my birthday - I turn 32. And today, I am 12 weeks pregnant with our second, long-awaited child. The details of how almost impossible this particular pregnancy seemed to me are a little too graphic, … Continue reading A Little, Tiny Announcement

Negative tests and practicing my poker face

{I've been leery of sharing these thoughts and stories about our journey to have Baby #2. I don't want to get pegged as an infertility writer cause I will feel guilty for getting pregnant when my readers are still trying. But more than that, letting strangers see the longings in my heart has been just … Continue reading Negative tests and practicing my poker face

9 reasons I like being a mom

There are many days where I feel like a strange version of a woman. Being a working mom will do that to you. It can be confusing. Mix in the fact that my son does not go to childcare but stays home with his dad, which is great and I am thankful, but this complicates … Continue reading 9 reasons I like being a mom