When It’s No One’s Fault But You Want It To Be

It’s painful to watch. The itching, clawing, bleeding of my son’s eczema. It tugs on my compassion, but it pulls harder on my anger. I hate that sound, the furious scraping of fingernails across the skin, the catclaw marks they leave behind. And not just occasionally, or seasonally, or even for a month-long stretch. It’s … Continue reading When It’s No One’s Fault But You Want It To Be

Sometimes I Don’t Believe In Redemption

It breaks my heart to say this, but sometimes I think people can't be saved. Our church's mission is Live the Restoration, to literally display what the Gospel story looks like in my life so others can imagine it in theirs. Sometimes I pray for people I meet out in real life, or at work … Continue reading Sometimes I Don’t Believe In Redemption

How to know your child’s ruined

Becoming a mom almost three years ago transformed me into one of the most neurotic, nail-biting versions of myself. Because children are seen as a reflection of their parents, naturally I want my son to be well-behaved, brilliant, articulate and most of all, potty-trained. Like me. My greatest fear is that I will ruin him, … Continue reading How to know your child’s ruined

A Little, Tiny Announcement

Today is one of those days where I know God is extravagantly kind because my life is proof. Today is my birthday - I turn 32. And today, I am 12 weeks pregnant with our second, long-awaited child. The details of how almost impossible this particular pregnancy seemed to me are a little too graphic, … Continue reading A Little, Tiny Announcement

The Other Side of Commitment

On the other side of commitment is everything you want. It's a cruel irony. Our culture offers millions of options, and for millennials especially, there is this looming, strangling fear of missing out. We don't want to miss out. We are terrified of missing out. Of missing the one thing, the right thing. So we … Continue reading The Other Side of Commitment

Negative tests and practicing my poker face

{I've been leery of sharing these thoughts and stories about our journey to have Baby #2. I don't want to get pegged as an infertility writer cause I will feel guilty for getting pregnant when my readers are still trying. But more than that, letting strangers see the longings in my heart has been just … Continue reading Negative tests and practicing my poker face